Spring is here, finally!!

Welcome Spring!! If there is one thing about springtime I relish, it is the birds! Waking up and hearing birds singing to one another is so delightful to me. Jennifer has put up feeders outside my window, both for small birds (niger seed) and the larger, a sunflower mix. I prefer to have hulled sunflower seeds as the birds do not like the hulls and scatter them on the floor bed wherever they hang. I had my first male finch visit last night.

Today is a big day for several reasons. My cousin's only daughter is getting married and one of the young ladies at our church is expecting her first child in several weeks and we are giving her a shower today. I have the responsibility of making mock "Hostess Cupcakes" and I will say that they are quite close and delicious. I can say that because I didn't create anything about it, just found the recipe online!

One of the reasons I have not posted is that I felt every single time I wrote I had to have some spiritual insight discovered, etc. and that just isn't possible. I have also had to have new meds started that make me very tired. So my TO-DO lists are not getting done and that makes me find myself swimming in a "pool of discouragement." SO sorting through that new phase of being on hospice has been going on. I'm not as discouraged as since going on the stronger meds have helped my pain level.

I initiated a conversation idea with my family called, "IF I COULD I WOULD...." since my reality is such, that I can do very little that I want to to do. So it has been fun to hear of some things they would do with me if I could do those activities. So here is my entry today:

IF I COULD I WOULD:

go bike riding. haven't done it in years but have wanted to FOR years. The trails around here are just growing and of course they are beautiful! It would be great fun as a family.

I would landscape with flowers and ground covers, little waterfalls and "all things bright and beautiful!"

That's enough entries for today on that topic. I want to be able to say them where a natural longing and admittedly sorrow might assist in those words but I don't want to have it get depressing. It defeats the whole purpose for me which is to open dialogue of the "real me inside" since most don't see or hear of such things.

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Blessings to all,
Deborah